What this year means to me

Hello World.

School's out! I can't believe that the year is almost ending for all of us. Yesterday, I received my results slip and I guess I was pleasantly surprised because (a) I didn't calculate my GPA at all and (b) I guess I got slightly more than what I had expected? Anyway, I do not feel that my life revolves around results, not that I can produce perfect scores anyway. I guess that I try to put in effort in everything I do...

... erm, or maybe I had changed to think like the above meme?? Nah, I still believe that you should not give anything lesser than your best in whatever you do.

Speaking about changes, I do feel that I had changed a lot since 2011. As I looked at my GPA, I couldn't help but note an abnormal trend in my results - I actually scored highest this year. In year three, the year that every teacher had assured us that "it is perfectly normal to see a drop in your results", "it will be extremely tough trying to juggle 8+ subjects -goes on to promote taking 7 subjects-", "you guys will have to juggle CCA stuff alongside with your academics!", ironically, had been a year that I am happy with my results. (I guess it really attributes to choosing subjects that you really enjoy studying for!) Meanwhile, in year one, aka easiest year to breeze through in your dhs life, I ended up scoring top 75% and I really cannot help but cringe when I look at my year 1 results. I failed a chinese test because I missed a whole text and threw away 20 marks like that, stuff that I can score full marks in such as 成语,听写, pop quizzes, and more, I knew I didn't even try. Seriously, what was wrong with me then?

I know what was wrong with me - I was distracted. My studies, my only responsibility as a student, was neglected. Compared to how I study for things now, I bet I can say that I "did not study" in year 1. I was someone that I was not proud of, if at all. After living through my year 1 days in a blur, I only suddenly realised at almost the end of the year how much of a disappointment I was and finally woke up. It was a tight slap across the face, and it was changing for the better that was the worst. I will never want to live through those days ever again.

Okay, I don't know what was that rambling for. Anyway, on a lighter note, I did things that were rather lame to drive myself to become a better person. I lengthened my skirt, changed my spectacles, removed my.... fringe, cut away my hair (it used to be LONG!)... are you laughing/ mentally going "say whaaaaat" yet? I know, I guess I am a rather sentimental person. These gestures do mean something to me. In all, I'm glad I have my priorities straight today. *glances at year 1 records* *still cringes in disgust*

I am really excited for this holiday because it is really fully packed. I can feel the excitement already! Choir concert is coming up on 30 november, so there is a lot to learn, perfect and plan for throughout November. Meanwhile, I be away for Taiwan trip. After I come back, I will enjoy myself at concert and then go for Atelier choir concert practices, we are going to collabrate with SYC and Mr Velasco, and are potentially singing at the place which gives out $50 entry passes *hypes* not to mention in the meantime, there will be class and choir chalets!! I really cannot wait but most of all, I don't want this to ever end.

:(

Sincerely, drowning in holiday homework.