Last moments of 2012

Isn't it scary how a year flies by so quickly?

I still remember how I felt in the beginning of this year. I kept on telling myself that it was a new start and I'm gonna make the year worthwhile. I still remembered how "Page 1 of 366" and all subsequent numbers trended on twitter daily (and I almost spelled it as tweeter omg.) I remember feeling overjoyed when I got my first results slip of the year, which is unfortunately not counted in anything official at all.

2012 was a year of joys and setbacks. I learnt that backstabbing (it's a strong word, and different people have different definitions for it.) will be inevitable some time in your life as long as you do maintain even a single friendship. I got my first this year, unfortunately I can only say that friendship problems like this will be considered "minor" because I still have a long way to go in dhs and who knows what I'll face out in the real world someday. I absolutely hated that feeling of being extremely confused and unhappy. Feeling extremely disappointed in myself when I performed really horribly in choir and it really sucks when you have to sit out of performances. Academic disappointments also found its way into my life by mid-year because I spent so much time on cca. Mostly, bad things are mixed with feelings of angst and disappointment.

However, one problem doesn't mean the end of the world. At the same time I found great friends to keep for life and also got to know some of my classmates more through the most unexpected things. I didn't perform all songs for concert but at least I did sing, and I had a hell of a night on 25 May. I got up from my disappointments and I am happy for my eoy results. Many events also happened this year that were really fun and exciting, from lvl camp to peas to step. I also had my most extensive (not longest though) stay in China and I had so much fun and learnt a lot at the same time. I decided to choose paths and I am so thankful for Sher who brought me to the house of god and I enjoyed all my visits there. Choir year 2 inmates and epimeans would make my days. I definitely find all these moments much more worthwhile and that's what made 2012 memorable :)



It doesn't matter if you screwed up or didn't do your best, always think back on what went wrong and set your mind in the right direction. If you have had a better or great year, don't stop what you're doing.

Believe, work hard, stay positive. Happy new year :D

x

Things I owe 2E

Disclaimer: the events happened from october- early nov, I typed everything from late nov and it's late dec now... I'm sorry :( *cues beginning of post*

So... Uh, hi. I finally decided to care about this virtual space and update about my life. Anyway, as part of the overdue series on "what went on in my life since eoeoy", I'll begin with the last day of school.

... And now my mind is a total blank because I have no idea how to even begin, or what to write... can't think of any philosophical stuff to write either, what even.

Okay, I'll begin in a chronological order. I walked through the door into class and realised that I'd be the last time that I walk through the same door for the same purpose at that time of the day. It was sad :( I could feel that the atmosphere of the class was different, like the usual people chatting weren't exactly as lively (or maybe because it was 7+ on a Thursday.) Anyway, I had PT so I took out my cards which I had painstakingly written and innovated for each and every Epimean. Handed them out like Santa claus man haha and I received praises from some people OH WAI THANKIU I spent $8.90 on the cards, $2.90 for a pretty metallic marker and $4 on sta... again, it doesn't really matter because it's for 2E.

I came back to class much later to see a remarkable stack of cards, some snacks and a piece of Napkin on my table. I think the whole class was just checking out the notes on their desks and simply reading the words given by our classmates. Special thanks to Peng, Baobao, Chelsea, Phoebe, Yidi (and her musical score tissue paper), Richel, Kelly, Jansen (and his anonymous note with Adele lyrics), Joanna, Weiqin, Kee Bin, Annadine, Yan Lin, Lu Ning (with her note thats in complete chinese) and who can forget, Lily! All in no particular order except for the flower.Your cards are now kept in the my envelope that used to be for our Angel and Mortal system. Maybe special thanks to all of you who thought of me and also those who thought of giving cards but didn't cos you were too lazy or whatever...

And then we all placed our chairs in a circle and Mr Ong, (with his recently-revamped-closet fashion, of course) gave us all a talk. It's nothing much, we understand how good he is with words... and then he gave out expensive Ice-cream to the class comm. Holy shit we are talking about Haagen-Dazs here and he gave the first mini tub to Ms Low... Hmm... afterwards he presented it to the comm and when it's my turn I chose Chocolate Fudge (or lava, whatever some exquisite name because it's effing overpriced) but mainly because I wasn't adventurous enough to try those.. Rum & Raisin oh so high-class flavour type? He also gave out Macaroons!! Talk about being generous!

We then went for farewell assembly and they started it with prize presentation for the Humanities trial and let's just say I couldn't believe my ears when they said that our group tied for first at some history station and thought I was dreaming when we won 2nd group overall. Didn't felt like we were that good though so it's surprising. Everyone in my group bagged home $20 worth of popular vouchers *hehe* Anyway, the classes sat in this curve position (like choir) and so all the photo montage and sentimental stuff began. Can see that a lot of effort had been put into making the vids, preparing the paragraphs and all :D lastly, the teachers surprised us with a BUFFET CATERED FOR THE WHOLE LEVEL WHAT EVEN it's madness. I don't see them being so nice to other levels T__T but the queue was horrible lol so ended up I ate vegetarian food cos the queue was shorter and also food that other people gave.

Lastly we headed back to class again to clean up the room and I have no idea why but we suddenly found this bus 158A card in one of the cabinets. Well who stole it from the bus... anyway, it's like a brand new class accessory for only one hour and I hope the cleaners don't remove it. It now sits proudly on our whiteboard :D

After vigorous cleaning and getting back our dossier, we gathered in the circle yet again for final briefing, I guess. We collected money for CCF and Mr Ong gave out eclairs and the tulip collar pins that he had received from donating to ccf beforehand. Nothing much happened then and then he dismissed us. That is all.

And then you'll realise that all those people who frantically packed their bags and left aren't coming back anymore... It just hits you like that :( It was s sad but mainly because I'm emotional and can't contain my feels. There were only a handful of girls left and we started to hug and all, it was a full-of-feels moment. Actually I did sob a little and peng smacked me for making her feel like crying too. Evelyn caught the crying disease. Lily accused me of being a liar when I went around telling people I'm not crying... aww come on :/ haha, finally we packed our bags and left, looking forward to class chalet, ultimately hoping to cross paths again.

CLASS CHALET 20~22 NOV

The long awaited chalet is finally here!!When I was at the MRT waiting for the shuttle bus to nsrcc I saw 2B and 2C there and for a moment thought that I'm gonna miss the bus and won't get there in time :O Anyway I was there earlier cos I was supposed to meet Daniel's mum to check in, and really special thanks to yx and Rachel who kindly insisted that I must get into the bus before them upon hearing about why I was there... ended up having about 4 2C people left to take a cab. That's because there was about 6 tourists on the bus with us as well.

Upon reaching I was aware of how effing high class the place is. The design of the bungalows are exquisite. It's almost like a condo - where everyone lived in private property and had shared facilities like the pool and gym. Note: country club members have it all. The place was just... so pretty and you'd want to live there forever once you set your eyes on it.... maybe I'm just crapping now cos I'm comparing it to the aranda chalet last year with horrible decomposed ketchup smell in the whole room experience...

That was just a part of it... it's like, the four corners are ALL glass. Behind me was a kitchen island and to the right was a living room with the dvd and stuff, then a spiral staircase that leads to the bedrooms. Damn pricey considering how small this place was.

Then some of us girls decided to go to the beach :D The chalet is actually along the coasts of ECP but it's too far away... like in area H, when the usual places you'd hang out at ECP would be area A-F.. so there wasn't any beaches but we walked across tall grass just to get to this really small coast that linked to the sea. The weather was nice and we mostly walked along the coast, sometimes spraying water at one another... Then Lynette insisted on getting wet, I have no idea why, and she influenced Keebin and Jiamun into doing so as well... so Lynette sat in the sea and then proceded to dunk baobao and Keebin into it as well. In the end they were all complaining about having sand in their underwear. HAHA.

We went back and tried to splash sand off our feet. Tried. The living room ended up having so much sand, dirt and dust that it was impossible to ever sweep it clean afterwards... Anyway, we watched the Spongebob  squarepants movie together like a bunch of kids. Daniel started singing the goofy goober song after that to annoy us all. Played cheat, daiti for a little while to kill time, had unbelievably good luck that day cos I caught accurately. Key words: that day. Then Ms Low announced that she was coming and would be spending the night there! After dinner there wasn't much to do so we went to go bowling :D rented two lanes and watched the hidden talents from our class doing one strike after another. It isn't the game for me as the ball is too heavy for me to hold properly by one hand. Jiamun started narrating this horror movie called Final destination to us and it was all about death hunting down people who escaped it with a photo as a omen... and I swear she's that good at it that I felt extremely nauseated and Phoebe felt queasy after she was done. As the bowling arena was about to close we headed to the arcade and we played with the basketball stall. It's like people kept on appearing with one dollar coins so we kept on playing with the tossing game. Sadly the place closed so we had to head back to our chalet.

Ms Low went out with Mr Goh (from 2C's chalet) after that to buy plain water... and the place was far from civilization so I think they went bloody far out to get those. So we took the chance to watch horror movies and when the show started, I realised that it was actually a Malay horror movie. If there's anything you don't know, you must know now that horror movies that really freak the shit out of you begins with Thai movies topping the list. Then Malay/ Indonesian. So some girls incl myself was pretty freaked out by the first scare (at some toilet scene) so we headed upstairs to watch Ted from the Laptop. Keebin who is extremely innocent laughed like mad during the Thunder song... which caused all of us to laugh hysterically as well and rewind to that scene two times. So while we're watching our vulgar show we suddenly heard this piercing scream from downstairs and it freaked us out. We were told later that it was actually Alvin who screamed the highest pitch during all the sudden scare parts, followed by the girls. Can you imagine if a sucker like me went to watch it... When our movie was almost done people downstairs came to our room and demanded to watch what's left to "neutralise" the scare. Badly shaken... they still had to watch the Simpsons after that to actually feel better. Ms Low came back and said that they went all the way to Tamp to get stuff... she also bought roti pratas for us, which we had to finish at like 2am in the morning.

By 3am or so some of us girls decided to take a nap cos if not we'd be badly knocked out by next day (actually it's "next day" already.) Some of them were still wearing contacts that that ungodly hour and Phoebe actually had a serious meeting in the school the next day but she's still awake! We pieced the small beds together and slept like that, with Phoebe and I on the ground with sleeping bags. So... it was really damn awkz cos we did everything then except to sleep! Also the girls on the bed had a serious issue about sharing the blanket and were complaining about having their feet sticking out/ the shorter one shifting too much. And the people downstairs were making a hell lot of noise \o/ so it was like 3.10am and we set an alarm at 3.40am to wake up cos we really couldn't sleep at all. Anyway... you know, I'm kinda like the heavy sleeper and any condition doesn't matter to me, so I was in this half-trance by the alarm time and all of them got out of the room! I decided to sleep on. Shame on me. probably missed a whole load of fun. But by 4.30am I was still bloody shifting on hard wooden floor and then Ms Low came in and wanted to sleep, so I supposedI fell asleep then. I found myself waking up at like 7am the next day surprisingly VERY refreshed. Weird.

So I went down and discovered that phoebe was already in half school u and she totally didn't sleep at all last night. How does she even do that. Kee bin and I tried to make breakfast and we found out that the carton of milk was actually placed in the FREEZER so it was really a block of rock hard milk and has the potential to kill if smashed against the head. So we had to wait for it to defrost and being extremely stubborn we didn't even want to eat the cereal without the milk. All of us settled for instant noodles/microwaved leftovers from dinner instead of the nutritional stuff. So about 8 of us wanted to rent bicycles but unfortunately the counter only opens at 9 and we needed to make guest passes before renting them. When we got to the renting shack we still spent a heck of a time finding the keys to the correct bikes cos the counter didn't have the keys to some of the bikes! We cycled along the stretch of easy coast and back to even further, heading towards changi beach, and back to the chalet. Shisong did some stunt which went horribly wrong and he totally did a somersault with his bike into the air and got some pretty nasty looking wounds. Alvin carried on cycling while the rest of us returned the bikes, and all of us except myself didn't sleep at all.

So when we got back till about noon was all buffer time. Baobao and keebin were the first few to crash and they fell asleep immediately upon contact with the beds. After that some of the boys went to their room to sleep as well, and some epimeans arrived for the day. Michelle was being cute as usual and was extremely shocked to hear most of us didn't event bat an eyelid. Then Annadine and Kelly (actually they don't know this at all) were on opposite ends of the couch and they blanked out for a moment and started leaning towards the middle. Mich was so excited to see them both like that. I guess they did fall asleep but 2mins was too short to announce so. Lunch came by and we ordered macs with Daniel order a Double quarter pounder with cheese upsize. ("With a diet coke please, don't wanna get fat. ")

After that it was *drum roll* TREASURE HUNT. Ok it was supposed to be treasure hunt but... It's more of amazing race though :) I think we pulled it off rather well except for the starting game cos we just wanted to waste time and didn't put in effort to dry run to see if it actually works. (LEGIT COMM EXPLANATION) Overall I had fun at where I was stationed!

The BBQ came afterwards and of all things that could happen, it started to rain. We were holding umbrellas while trying to start the fire and cook satays and wings. We also poured boiling water over hot dogs and crabsticks but it ended up undercooked :/ anyway the real shocker was that we ordered a 10 pax package and the 20+ people present at the BBQ couldn't finish everything, not even close to half. Maybe a little over half. Spammed murderer and cheat before I left with Kelly.

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Well, these two years had its ups and downs. We definitely didn't have a smooth journey as a class, but the fun times we had definitely outweighed all the discrepancies. I'll never forget all the funny moments, from Hintze interrupting class to Mr Ong's torturing.

I'll never forget how all the boys became Bobby and all the girls became Sally.

I'll never forget how we upgraded from pea brains to coconut heads.

I'll never forget how Mr Ong told us about the inappropriate things that happens at NUS hostel, and then we laughed like shit when a confused Ms Low told us that joining YWP will give us a chance to stay there.

The moments are endless and never fail to make my day, so thank you all for that.

Epimea is also the place where I found out who are my true friends. Epimea allowed me to constantly improve myself and change for the better. So thank you all again for the cooperation for any class events. Thank you all for the encouragements when... Stuff happened to our class. I'll never thank you enough, Epimea.

Let's keep in touch and wishing you guys all the best :)

p.s I actually have much more photos of class chalet, but you know what, I lost my phone. YES GUISE, JUST A YEAR AFTER I FIRST DID. So many pretty pics of the seaside... I get pissed even thinking about it.

x

When your mum's away

Well, if your mum is the usual housewife (aka. Superwoman), you'd probably end up with a catastrophe as your daily routines are messed up with a flustered dad (aka. The novice household guru)

ANYWAY, my Mum has some important things to settle overseas so she just left around 6am today. That leaves my dad settling things she normally does, one thing being administering my bro's daily shots. So.. imma end off this post with a convo.

-It is in chinese, but who cares. Life's too short to change the language bar.-
Dad: *Takes an alcohol swab and wipes it over the head of the vial, many times*
Bro: Once is enough!!!! Germs might get onto it again!
Dad: Oh? *wipes again*

Dad: *draws out the fluid from vial*
Bro: *spots an air bubble in the barrel*
Bro: *gulps* ... I am going to die...

Dad: *Takes swab to wipe the area where he'll inject*
Dad: *buffers* wait... where did I wipe it again?

Dad: *pinches up that area of skin*
Bro: Ahhh!!!
Dad: Be a man! This isn't even painful!
Bro: No you must pinch deeper! You're only holding onto the surface skin...
...
Bro: Oh my god... (*a mix of cry and laughter) Mummy.. where are you?! MUMMY!!
Me: Good luck, you need it.

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A post about last day with 2E coming up soon. I've been drafting it, but it's really sad to think of what to type...

And that's just the way it goes

Just so you know, results are out. Actually, the portal for online subject selection has been opened an hour and nine minutes ago (as I type this).

Shall be honest. When I received my results, I was really disappointed in certain subjects. Not because I aimed for an A+ and only got an A, but because... being Chinese, I actually scored lower than what I am able to do so in mt. You know, it's really about the expectations: I was unhappy for that but was over the moon when I passed history. FYEAH, YOU CAN GET DOWN AND KISS MY FEET HIST. That would be totally the last History paper I'll ever take in my life. Thank goodness that I have AEP to replace History. Happy for geog essays but not so for DRQ though, guess I'll work on that. Well unfortunately dropping maths next year isn't an option so I shouldn't comment about Madly Math, it's okay la.

After that I calculated my eoy gpa by using the lowest possible scores; like for instance I scored A in EOY but I may not have gotten that grade overall, hence I counted it as a B. Using that, I ended up with a score that allows me to take 8au and was also an improvement from last year. Basically, I wouldn't say that I'm extremely happy but I'm not upset either. I didn't work my hardest for y1 and so I'm quite disappointed that I only improved by, technically, one grade. People tell me that one grade is a huge difference, but is it so? I was really set in changing myself for the better this year, and if my scores have a larger difference... do you understand? It'll make me feel like I had succeeded (ok what am I even saying? Basically I'd feel more shuang hahaha) Secondly, if I go with my guts to take Art next year, my estimated scores would not qualify me for 9au and basically I would need to drop one of the sciences. To me, you might as well take away two pounds of my flesh if you are going to take away one of the sciences from my choice. Lastly, I honestly do not wish to get into any other combi, I only have one set in mind. Thus I seriously have to idea what to select for my 2nd and 3rd choice. People told me to anyhow select, but what if they place me in choice 2 instead? What if appeal doesn't work then? Do I spend the next two years walking down a suicide route?

What if, what if, what if.

Was in a huge dilemma. Because out of the big three problems mentioned, they branch out into a million more questions. How can I choose between my dream combi and my favorite subj in the world? If I take double double what science am I gonna drop? But I'm only good in one humans... What If I didn't even get what I estimated? Can I juggle with so much? Am I even good in art? etc etc you get the point. It sucks, how I have all these doubts when my gpa isn't even finalized. It'd save me a lot on worrying if I do know.

Back to reality. So online subject preference selection opened today. It was 12.24, I was scrolling through twitter to see some people already counting down 2hr++ ago when selection is based on merit and some submitted the form already... okay but I just really didn't want to log in, because I don't have the guts to see my gpa. As the selection form limits choices with regards to your gpa and whether you selected an extra subj, it means that if I selected AEP under the drop down menu for extra subject and I did not get the required gpa, I'd not see 3S1H and 2S2H in my possible combi (9au) drop down menu. So I guess this was it. I selected AEP and I went to see my combi, guess what? So I did see all three combi under the drop down menu after all. Also, sbge subjects were listed at the bottom...

Mixed feelings. First I wondered if there was some kind of a bug or huge glitch which didn't update my scores in the system, and then it hit me that that might be it. Then I kind of was too thrilled to think WOOHOO my darling art we are not parting anymore! This would also signify that I did hit my target for this year and that would be quite a gap with y1 gpa. Subsequently I got worried because I had many talks with my parents regarding what subj combi to put and I did not mention AEP at all (thinking I did not qualify) so this would mean that I would have to deal with 1) can I cope? 2) am I willing to let go taking art? 3) sbge or not? and much more but oh gosh the biggest mystery of all: which subject(s) did I actually get higher than what I think I had gotten?! << going mad thinking about this because I really have no idea.

What a turn of events... Okay whatever right now I'm just gonna think through (again. I hate you, results...) and talk to my parents (again... -_-)

Honestly, I'm not exactly sure if I'm happy now, but I wouldn't say I'm disappointed anymore.

Can't wait for STEP!!! Super super happy that proposed choir chalet dates do not clash with step but one of them do clash with 2E chalet D; fingers crossed that those set of dates don't get selected. Haha :)

x

Chasing Pavements

IT'S OVER!!!!

Yes you heard it, Y2 EOY IS OVER AND DONE WITH!!! What a crazy year. Mugged so much harder and everything was comparatively much more difficult, and it's done with! Glad it's over and happy I placed my all!

MORE CELEBRATION! HAPPY DAYS ARE HERE!



So.. now I'm just a little paranoid that I might have unknowingly screwed up some papers... Anxious about geog, not sure if teachers are okay with my hist, lost 3 marks in chinese alrd (and it's all in mcq only leh D:), not sure if my LA essay is actually ok.. and maths! My enemy all year: didn't find answer for 18 and 19. 7 marks gone alrd ha aha ha

But no... GONNA STAY POSITIVE it's over already anyway. Isn't that the main point of this wordy post?

Spent my day on Glee and I'll read The Casual Vacancy tonight.. awwwwww yeah. Jiayou to 2E for interclass tomorrow! All the best Epimeans (◕‿◕) ~♥

Really need a good rest before planning for next year starts! It's been half a year since I last saw a movie, gosh.. Next up: PEAs, Aes nite, STEP and Class chalet too! woohoo :)

Ohwell. Its 2200 now and its first EOY paper Chinese p1 tomorrow (and I did not study a lot for zuowen) and i spent the whole day on geog. So I have one last essay to memorise and three SAQs to prepare. Ugh.

:/

So, I guess this is it. A daunting task in front of me, what I've set out all year to get- will I get it?

I hope there isn't any mistakes.

"A successful man is one who can lay a firm foundation with the bricks others have thrown at him." ~David Brinkley

It's just that... Right now, I feel that the bricks are really making me fall from the steps of the staircase that I've climbed.

But all we did was say hello.

HEY.I just did the craziest thing ever. I reviewed all my fb friends and actually unfriended all those whom I did not know, one by one.
What pisses me off is that when I painstakingly did all that, there are still 705 friends. I think I removed a hundred people at least. 700+ feels like it's a lot to me...
Anyway, it's the last day of the holidays, I feel dreadful for the next day. Jiayou to myself for the final lap of year two. Highlights of this holiday...

• Went to MBS with Weiqin, Lily and Michelle because it's Michelle's belated birthday gift. Totally turned into full-tourist that day. It was an awesome day :)

• Masterclass at school, Mr Velasco had certainly delivered choral skills in a fun way.

• Music Recital SK

• Sha gu niang

• ...

And yes, that's about it... nothing much. Sha gu niang is actually pretty darn good.

All my weekdays were spent mugging at my favorite coffee shop until I'm kinda... well, broke from spending $6++ for a cup of Ice-blended every time to get a seat. So I headed to macs in the remaining days and although their drinks are much cheaper ($1.80 for the smallest cup of "hot choc" you knooooo) but their hot chocolate... what I practically drank was warm milk with cocoa powder blotted in layer of foam. Seriously. Now I know why I should spend $6.50 at bux for a mug of classic hot choc because it's really worth the price. The table leg was also really shaky and how I sat throughout 6 hours was alternate between legs to press and hold down the nearest table leg T__T
Oh well. Bye my holidays...
Wait, what? What holidays?
x

Deer in the Headlights

HEY.

IT'S THE SEPTEMBER HOLI- ... Wait, what? What holidays?

Got holiday meh?

Exactly my sentiments. What is supposedly a time to recharge and catch up on studies for some ended up as a time to rush work instead. I'm not complaining about homework, of course not. Homework is essential. But it is seriously overboard when you are given things such as... what, three content-heavy essays? Or when you make us self-study a whole topic, when so many of us did not do well for this term's test? Homework is ok, I shall stress again. But what happens when we have barely a month to study whole year's worth of content for the biggest test ever? This means that it is essential to revise as well. When you add revision, homework, cca training/pracs and one week together, what you get is just a brain inplosion.

:(

Recipe post

What you need:
Blues
A spoilt phone
Smart brain(s)
Great legs
Low self-esteem

Step 1: make sure you set an alarm at 6am on a Monday, because your smartphone will ended up not ringing.

Step 2: actually crawl out at an ungodly timing and rush like shit.

Step 3: experience severe Monday blues while you wear your shoes with your breakfast in your mouth.

Step 4: when you get into the car, your smart brain will yet again remind you that you have forgotten to take that piece of paper where you wrote everything you've prepared for an essay test that day.

Step 5: with your great legs, run home. Return to your fuming mum and bro 5mins later.

Step 6: run seriously late for school, reaching somewhere near the back gate at 7.53.

Step 7: RUN. Must. Reach. In. Two. Minutes.

Step 8: assembly ends. You walk off as your usual morning routine. Your smart brains will inform you that you have forgotten to take your bag along when you're halfway to class.

Step 9: your bad luck streak unfortunately, shows consistency. At 10.20, you realise you forgot to bring your choir tee for cca photo taking.

Step 10: groan, because your mum who works somewhere near school would most probably have left home circa 10am.

Step 11: remembers that your passage base test is on that day, and you have never been that good with essays anyway. Add a pinch of low-self esteem to season.

Step 12: head to auditorium at end of day to get back dreaded history papers. Hmm, let's add in "*insert adjective* voice yada-yada for an hour" here before you get back the paper as a garnish.

And that's how you make a "can't-get-any-worse day" dish, folks!

Serve while hot.

Irrational

Thoughts.

Got a random inspiration to write in the mrt. Sorry to the guy I eavesdropped on tough... And thank you.

On a side note, tomorrow is the 14th again, it has been 5 months. I hope you are still staying strong on the other side Bell. We miss you so much.

Dislike maths. Dislike x 10000. Today just made my detest for it increase by a hundred times more. :(

And incase you wonder why I am in the mrt now, I'm heading to my favorite place to study!! Nah, actually it's my favorite coffeeshop (because I like their non-caffeine drinks) that is actually empty and nearest to sk :)

Lazy Sunday.

Usual Sunday and I am losing myself as I stare ahead, blankly. Random feeling of gratitude. Glad that I made mistakes earlier and is able to see for myself what kind of horrible person I had been, then change for the better. Really, grateful.

CTs, why oh why :( don't like you ahskdjabaulsbahajahgjalahawokl

I'm faaaaaaaaling from... Where?

HELLO!! Feeling bored but before I sleep I should update this virtual space haha.

Just now my parents were telling me that they are going to my bro's school for a buffet. Apparently hips co wants to celebrate their successes at both Genting and hangzhou (yeah my brother is a lucky ass) so all parents were asked to go and do a concert review + 庆功宴. Then my mum said something along the lines of sigh I'll have to listen to that principal talk again.

And that brings me to what I wanted to blog today after a long-winded paragraph. I wanted to talk about the relevance of Harry potter to my life. (!!)

NAH.

Just kidding not gonna do an expository essay here but my mum totally reminded me of my days in p5/6. I remember when we changed principals from the good-hearted Mrs Sum to.... yeah, everyone especially the seniors could not stand her. Being the Potterhead I was I was totally like NOOOOOOO DUMBLEDORE WHY DID YOU LET UMBRIDGE TAKE YOUR PLACE SOB SOB. As a side note, she kind of does look like a toad. If only she wears pink and keeps a blood quill...

Also, I started to remember the times when we had 相声 external vendors coming in and for a performance item we must get a partner of the opposite gender. Being very 'mature' kids then we kept on being shy and awkward about this and I started all the THIS IS THE YULE BALL PEOPLE! thing. I mean, I could really relate to the same stuff Harry, Ron and Hermione faced when they were looking for partners.

HAHAHAHAHA I CAN'T. thinking back I was really quite an immature kid I really can't believe I used act in such a '....' way. Anyway, embarrassing things are meant to be forgotten right? Right..?

I am still glad about Harry potter in my life though. It had totally spiced up things such as events in my pri sch journey man. I so need to update about the HP exhibit too :D if not, adieu.

Pulling out my hairs

Hey I just read you.
And this is crazy!
But after awhile..
... I forgot already.

My life story sigh. History why are you doing this to me :( well other than inefficient reading for hist today had been rather productive hahaha with other stuff plus piano. And my dad is coming home today!! HAHA I'm very excited to see what he has for us lol *greedy* nah jk still happy that he's coming home. Can't wait to hear his always funny/经典 comments about the japs. Can't fetch him though cos of piano.

If I'm not wrong my family's going to Gardens by the Bay tmr to celebrate family reunion! Yay can't wait :D although it's srsly daylight robbery for the attraction entrance tickets T_T

To undervalue.

Posting for the first time through blogger app haha so bear with it if there is anything autocorrected and I didn't know.

Decided to use this app cos my brother is afraid of the dark/sleeping alone so I need to sit by him and he must be totally asleep before I could move o_e Ugh and I have stuff to down. Would you believe that this coward would turn double digit tomorrow?

Neither could I. But still, happy birthday~ and here comes the hardest days to go through in the week, the five days after weekend.

All that glitters is not gold.

Thumbs up for my Shakespeare reference (Y)

Anyway, it's been very long since I've updated, very sorry :(

Basically, 4 weeks is always too little for holidays. I might even go around on a petition to get people to sign if they agree that the holidays are speeding, and then I'll give the clip board to the traffic police. Deserves a good summon k.

This post gonna be quite dry with no picts (maybe next time..) and it's just an update.

After handover (sob :'( ) I went off with my bro and mom to China, as usual. However, instead of visiting our grandpa this time, we decided to go sightseeing as tourists at Shanghai and Beijing instead. We brought 外婆 and my aunt along as well :)

I just wanna say that I miss those two weeks of backpacking a lot :( it was seriously a fun experience. We took the plane to Shanghai and upon landing, we found out that mom's friend didn't come and fetch us :O So we being fearless tourists (lol jk) took the metro for like 30mins to this station near The Bund, apparently the only attraction my mom knew about Shanghai and therefore had us to stay near there.......... anyway, we were acting like bosses dragging two huge luggage that give off our identity as "外国人" to any Chinese who passed by. So after a tiring hour or so dragging luggage and my mom still being in high heels, we settled in of of those chain hotels, equivalent to Hotel 81 here. While you might turn your nose away in disgust, the hotel room was beyond my expectations imho. It was actually new, quite spacious, clean... cheap? HAHA, went to have dinner before we went to The Bund at night for sightseeing. I've been here when I was in P4 for shenjiamen, standing in front of the same buildings taking photos. Being back that day I seriously felt the nostalgia and had a great time looking at 东方明珠 and the seriously beautiful European buildings there omg! I think it's the bank.

The next day we went to 上海科技馆 because we didn't plan anything and I insisted that we must. It's funny how my bro and I already came on scho

ol trips and we have to be guides. I chose that place maybe because I went there on shenjiamen trip... the moment i entered the place the memories flew into me once again, I remember when we come that we had no idea where in the world to go to. That day, I knew why. That place had like 3 levels of exhibition halls. Wow so I randomly flew everywhere with my bro because the adults wanted to rest, and I was quite pleasantly surprised to see that some of the exhibitions didn't change. Had a fun day there :) After that, we went to 陈皇庙/庙街 to do some shopping and of cos queue 2 hours for xiao long bao ^^ memories~

So somewhere along the way my grandma mentioned wanting to go and see her niece (it's not exactly a niece it's a really complicated story but still considered a relative I guess) and she constantly talked about not seeing her for almost 10 years already. My mom and aunt talked about bringing us all to Hangzhou, where my partial aunt lives, in consideration of making grandma happy. And at the same time it was just a half hour train ride or so, it was very near. So that night, we took a bullet train to Hangzhou and stayed there for two nights. Hangzhou was again one of the places that I went on sjm trip so the same old feeling when we visited 西湖. I remember last time how we ate sweet potatoes from the vendors there until we were really unpresentable... whoops! My 'aunt' 's daughter is like 2 years old and freaking cute omg and she's very smart! Able to identify names of a lot of fruits haha.

We left on a six/seven hour train ride for Beijing south after that and so began our main objectives. In the next six days, we must conquer the following:

长城, 故宫, 天坛, 天安门, 毛主席纪念堂, 圆明园, 颐和园, 王府井, 鸟巢 and 水立方... not sure if there's more. Oh who can forget the awesome 烤鸭!!!

They all really fun of cos :') the great wall was actually really hard to climb, it's as steep as the beginning of Bukit Timah hill ... just all the way. Well but be climbed it under the hot afternoon sun! :D and not to mention sleeping only until 4am that day.... hehe. The historical places were great to go to, and the most (Y) comment made by my mum "不用围着那些人看皇位啦.. 电视剧里面多的是." I also met my friend Tiger after almost... 4 years I guess. Still being the very... comical person he is. For the first few nights we stayed somewhere near the bird nest and cube HAHA so we occasionally walked to the nearby Olympic park. After that, we moved to somewhere near tiantan and tiananmen. Not gonna bore you with the descriptions with each and every place... but I am very very very amazed my how metro fares are only 2 dollars in Beijing?! TWO YUAN. That's like paying forty cents for a MRT ride here to anywhere! and forty jiao for a bus ride? One yuan surcharge only for any cab you take.... I really liked that.

So lastly because we are in Beijing, my mum's friend in Tianjin told us to go over for a day since it's also a half hour train ride. Took the tianjin eye and tried 狗不理包子and 麻花 omg I would bring a whole suitcase of them back x_x

And so ended the really good days of finding my

way around the foreign place with a map in my hands, making sure we are taking the correct metro line and station, buying fruits I've never seen before and just eating a whole something-that-looks-like-a-baby-papaya in the open street (菜瓜 as grandma calls it) I realised I really had a thing about going to explore places by myself without tours. Did I mention that when we are at historical places we moved ourselves near tour guides and listen to their explanations too :P 可说是赚到了啊!

But good things have to come to an end....

Here I am back at school during June when it's June holidays. But it's quite okay la lol at least I managed to complete task assignments... just haven't really finish reading books..... nope you did not just read whatever I had written..... But I was really still in holiday mood. :/ And today, the friday of week 10, I had managed to pull myself through two tests, two project with proposals deadlines and is proud to say that I feel a load more relaxed on my shoulders now. Shall enjoy tonight after I've revised chengyu and seriously catch up on my sleep debt manz.

Piano exam is coming soon so it's time to focus :D and tomorrow, I have something... special. Not gonna reveal what it is soon, but it's a good cause I've decided to spend my leisure time in. I would really need a little luck though.

Bye! Jiayou to the world out there. LOL (Lots of love)

C h o i r

Hello. If it isn't obvious from the title already, this whole post is going to be about Choir. So.. I guess if you are really turned off by emotional little girls gushing/crying her heart out in a single long post, you might as well close the tab. :(

长话短说... Musical Promenade 2012 was a success!

It was awesome.

Amazing.

Wonderful.

Ear-gasmic.

Heart-warming.


I absolutely enjoyed myself during the concert night, as well as the months of preparation that followed. Sure, we had our ups and downs which resulted in many of us pulling our hair off. But come to think of that, it was really worth it after all of us felt the awesome feeling when we step off a stage, knowing that we shined so brightly on it :D



That morning, it was open house so we had open house performance. Singing plaudite, lion and may it be. The acoustics were horrible but nevermind still attracted many people haha. :) After lunch, there was some last minute choreo fixing-up before we ran off to the PAC for rehearsal. And then zoom zoom ZOOM... the final one and half hours of prep was up. Everyone was running around to finish dinner, change into costumes, makeup/shower at the same time. By 6.45 or so Choir room was a frenzy of opened up baggages thrown everywhere, girls lining up the wall mirrors to makeup.. and there was a calm Ms Tham sitting in the middle of the room going: "I understand that it is important to look pretty, but it's important for your voice to sound pretty too." (Y) haha. We did warm ups and all with SHchoir and BOOM! WE'RE UP.

I guess when we reached the backstage of PAC that was when all of the nervousness kicked in. I started to feel queasy, people showing signs of shuffling their feet and all... and then I looked around. I realised this was going to be the Y6s last concert. Shirlyn, Clement and Chikhim, we're never going to sing as one voice with them again. Seniors you guys are awesome! For a SH to try and get to know a newbie JH last year, you guys have broken down a boundary and definitely has a place in my heart :'( and then, I looked at the Y1s and thought, this is gonna be their first. concert. ever. and then to the Y4s, will they choose to sing with us as the combined choir next year? A million thoughts must have went through my head then. Everyone was like giving fist bumps and shoulder taps and all, I almost tripped with excitement when my row started moving for the door.

Then... IT'S SHOWTIME.

Taken from facebook but yes, that was opening piece, My song. I think I wrote my views about this song already. I'm not sure how we did for this song, but it was alright I guess. After that it was a mad rushing in and out for songs we are performing/not performing, combining with SH, SH moving out and all... I really loved how Ezekiel sounded, we pulled off the high notes well!! It actually sounded harmonious :') I hope we do this song for SYF!

When it was intermission everyone ran off to change into their Phantom costume. When I was changed and just entered the choir room, all the girls were tying their hair and I was just like, CAN LET DOWN HAIR MEH. "Only half!" people randomly shouted. Then before you know it almost all the girls went to change their hairstyle. Now this is more like it, Christine Daae with her hair down...



So we went backstage and listened quietly for the SH Wicked, and I actually felt so happy for them when they belted out the last wicked. All of us were cheering for them, it was just so nice. Their choreo is 435x nicer than ours too. It's just sad that JH is dying to do wicked and the SH is dying to do Phantom, and we get opposites :( Angie was saying that the medly sounded AMAZING. I think so too!!



And then we are up again. It was just nice to see that everyone was smiling and really putting their heart and souls into the song, and when we collapsed at the last "Ah" and the lights went out, the cheers were astounding. Best finale indeed!! Then it was all the token of appreciation and all then the SH came up again. Then the best words of the night
...



"ENCORE!" x ihavenoideahowmanytimesitwasshouted



We were all laughing haha cause we expected it but nobody actually talked about preparing for it. Then suddenly the guys went "oh-wim-oh-weh" and we followed suit, LION SLEEPS TONIGHT again! It was so fun to move together, a 130 people choir on a stage meant for 80 people HAHAHA!! Then the audience started to scream when we went to the words and clapped along, although it was fail at first (the clapping.) haha, it was just awesome :')

Then when we are done there were still people who shouted encore again and I was really hoping someone considered doing the Banana Potato song. I mean, WE HAVE THE SCORES K but anyway, the MCs just went on ending the concert. The lights went on and you see people running down the aisle with flowers and balloons. So we were just smiling at the people who received stuffs when suddenly... a wild dad and mum appears. HAHA they actually bought a small bunch of flower for me! How nice of them :D Felt so happy and blessed then.

It was just amazing, when we went up to Choir room afterwards and Ms Fang, Ms Tham were all happy for us... we took pictures and all, I especially loved the group photo. We were really squashing each other and poor Bingyang (not sure haha) was being taupok-ed so badly he was squashed for how many photos. Haha. BLACK AND WHITE FTW! (The boys with black outfit, girls white dress :) )

Soppies!!! Love you duck, and I hope you enjoyed your first concert shiqi ^^

A photo with Jerlyn! Thanks for standing beside me for almost all the songs. Hope you enjoyed your first concert too :D

SOPRANO!! Omg I love every. single. one of you so much I can't even oh my god why ahh ashjnowfufbouwborw. Best section okay! We stand stong, all of us and we really show what is SOP POWER. Funnyfaise ftw!
Lastly, must thank the YEAR2 BOBOS. Thanks for all the constant spamming of whatsapp whether it was regarding concert or not... Also, for the self initiated practices as a level. We have become more bonded than we were last year, and I hope the new peeps also feel the same :) Let us stay like this and become better friends haha! Our cuteness and how fun-going we are definitely helped me pull through the hetic pre-concert prep... love you all!

And then, we unwillingly made our way home. There was major concert hangover the next day, and in two days time... it was the deaded

..

..

Handover.

Oh boy, I'm gonna miss the year fours so much :'( You guys have helped me grow so much for the past two years and we've grown so close together, what are we gonna do without you D: When you guys came in and walked on the bubble wrap and you guys turned from year fours to four year olds straightaway... I was like oh man, we're gonna you all so much. And when we sang for good (Yes we borrowed the Wicked score from SH haaha), I really cried from the lyrics and the already crying faces of some of you :(

skip to 2:20

It well may be,that we will never meet again.In this lifetime,so let me say before we part.So much of me,Is made of what I learned from you.You'll be with melike a handprint on my heart.And how whatever way our stories end.I know you have re-written mine,by being my friend....

bye bye you all, I will miss all of you. All that you have done for us, its deeply appreciated. So... JIAYOU OKAY, study hard and i'll meet you guys in SH! Who knows, if you guys join SH choir... we can sing as one voice again. Love you all.

Adios

Hello all!

Camp was A W E S O M E. I got to meet many new friends who were very friendly and co operative :) also, the guys in our group are most nice OR funny, haha. (see what I did there. )

To me the biggest takeaway was dragon boating, it was fun to try out the different stunts on boat such as flinging our feet out into the water and all. Also, sit on the verge and rock the boat :P screamed our hearts out but hey, it was fun ^^ lastly, our group won the mini competition and I really learnt then that speed isnt everything. In fact, how effectively we used our strategies was. :) even Mr Chan afterwards was saying how this thing is an eye-opener!

So let's fast forward/rewind to the tents. It was not bad except for the presence of insects especially grasshoppers... Well, we were irked when we started pitching but due to time contains in setting off for orienteering we had to leave. So at night, Natasha had this lightbulb that we get some masking tape. For what? LOL, inside the tent all six of us were armed with a little tape and were like using kung fu speed fists to hit the 小朋友们 till we got a lot of sticky tape with wriggly insects on it... Which we tossed away. Opps!

High Es was fun :) it was most thrilling to jump off! But this instructor has this thing about after every climber completes the course, we all have to gather and tap their helmet saying "good job, well done. " guess having Gabriel and Nat in my watch wasn't exactly the best. Haha, from really tapping they turned into fists and all so when it was my turn to reach the ground... It felt like an earthquake.

Anyway, the low Es were fun too :D guess a reason why being small is fun is that I don't burden my group membs much when they lift me. I really liked the wall (though it hurts a tad bit) and spider web! The sense of accomplishment was overwhelming when we had an all-girls spotter team to transport a guy :) it was fun lol when the boys made crying baby sounds and say things like "push! I can see the head!!" "it's a boy!" Also, team spirits were really shown during the Mohawk Walk :)

Finally, like to talk about campfire because I was a concert IC with new friend fuyi and we choreographed the song (I've had) the time of my life. That song is classic and not only that, it really fulfills our feelings for camp then. Not everything was perfectly memorized and all but we still scraped though, and that was what made me most happy. I felt that we tried out est and at least most of the things were done. Afterwards, we had a group hug and I can't believe so many of us felt that little bit of water in our eyes.

Erm, would like to thank SISTER SOPHIA for being our instructor hahaha thanks for being so GL to all of us. And hitting me multiple times on my helmet. Youre really caring and they way you shoot the boys until they lose an argument was funny! Haha I quote one of them "huh after campfire take group photo? I want to get Sophia's number la!"

And I became like really good friends with Clarice, Yixin, Huizhi, Jerlin you all are cute in your own ways but of cos, awesome. I really couldnt ask for more. See you guys around! :)


By the way, all the songs on DJ dashboard was really catchy nice and all! Had fun singing along or even mutter for lyrics I don't know. :)

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Low achiever, and I am obviously very disappointed in myself.

Whee

Well, I went to watch The Lucky One with Michelle, Jansen, Jeffery and Jansen and it was just so touching. I can't wait to lay my hands on the novel. I really love the grandma in there she's really one of the few old people that makes you go (Y) and in the end, it was a scene of Zac efron (omg asdfghjkl) and his partner and etc on a boat. It zoom out, and we all realised it was actually the first scene that we saw. The river. Then, the boys began all the nonsense like "oh look, we just spent 10.50 watching a ship move from one place to another, practically the whole movie is a flashback!" "so this movie was about us going into the dirty mind of zac efron (you'll get this if you've watched it..)" "he fixed the boat? GLOBAL WARMING!!"

And that probably made Michelle and I who were on the verge of tears to growing 8 packs or something.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN, IT'S MAY?

This is kind of the worst way to begin a blog post but..

WHAT YEAR IS IT?
Nah just kidding was just trying to exaggerate about not being on blogger for a long time. A long time :( Recently kicked CT's ass so right now we're all free from mugging and I honestly can't wait for camp! However, I do have a lot of things to update from the last time I've updated (which is like march...) till the end of April. Thus this is gonna be one really long post...

Firstly, thank you all who made me enjoy my 14th birthday :D I'll really remember it! Thanks to everyone who bought me a gift, I appreciate all of them... Thank choir who sang a birthday song for me. Unfortunately I fell sick on the day itself (what luck!) I had to leave choir early. Thanks Jiahui who accompanied me :) Haha, lastly must thank my parents right who still allowed me to have some cake after endless begging! I mean, it's not my fault you buy me a RED BEAN FILLING cake when I'm sick right? Righhht?

Love the cake.

The most awesome one of all: Thanks mum, for accompanying to watch some of the best. things. ever. I am most touched about this because I know you have zero interest in anything related to english but you came with me just because I gushed about wanting to watch this one day. Love you! WICKED WAS JUST AMAZING, I ENJOYED ALL OF IT! :)

Wicked @ MBS

After that it was back to boring life trying to absorb as much as I can during lessons. Sigh :/ I really cannot stand geography lessons. I mean, the teacher just finished teaching whatever topic and BAM we get a quiz the next day. It is no miracle that a lot of the class is able to fail -_- Also teaching of essay skills was just ??? and I really don't think I could have lived without hon's notes and self study. Other than that... Chem formula and balancing is really fun!! Ok. That's about all I want to waste time to write about on studying.

Angie had her qihang performance at RP, it was not bad. Good job laoniang! Especially proud of myself because I found the way from my music school all the way to a remote corner in woodlands.. with a map! Like seriously the directory book HAHA :P

Lastly, something to melt your heart.. presenting to you the newest addition to the family! His name is Mantou :D He is not exactly ours, but he will be here long enough. Really love this little thing! It's a long-haired chihuahua.

Right and then, along the end of April was the common tests, spent most of my time mugging. Some days were spent with yixuan at various coffee outlets and some others at compass's library. Now with the end of the exams, I'm not really happy because its either some subjects were very difficult, I had not enough time to complete, or end up testing much lesser than what I have studied for! It's okay. I don't really care anymoreeee

Alright, jiayou to myself and the choir for 100% focus to the upcoming concert!

xy

This song... This song of mine will wind its music around you,
my child, like the fond arms of love.

This song of mine will touch your forehead
like a kiss of blessing.

When you are alone it will sit by your side and
whisper in your ear, when you are in the crowd
it will fence you about with aloofness......

Like this song so much... It's a song from choir and i like this partly because of thee super heart-warming poem, also for its harmonies. This song's super unique because it doesn't have the normal chord I, II, IV whatever shit that sounds 'normal', in fact it have chords that's like ABCDE played together at the same time. And it actually sounds really beautiful.

Hey term 2, be nice to me. Be nice to everyone around me:)

Hmm...

Let me get this straight.... Angry at me beacuse of me being clumsy and accident-prone? Dislike me because I am being myself (and yall doing the opposite?)

Best of all is I apologised and you said OK. So is it OK?

Seems legit! :)

IT'S CHOIR CAMP! Haha. Today was amazing. Marcus Tan being over zilian and keep on going grandly like "THE CHOIR MANISFESTO: 80 people, 4 sections, 1 voice, 1 choir." and then yeah, poses for the camera LOL. Really epic but at the same time i learnt a lot of things. Choir, time is running short. If we want to keep our standards up, 200% effort needs to be put in over the next 2 months. Jy! I love all of you :)

Last week of school

Haha today was really hilarious! Almost late for assembly cos we were busying using our phones to SMS in class... not kidding! xie lao shi told us to do the opinion based question at the back of the book and then she was like "等一下... 把你们的手机拿出来." a bit shocked but we still did it, and she told us to type our opinion into our phones, then sms her and another friend on what you have written. So after everyone typed and sent/whatsapped her, Daniel was like "We should totally send this to Shawn together!" Shawn's away for competition so we were all like LOL and wrote his number on the board, everyone really sent it to him. Can't imagine his expression when he receives 20+ messages regarding 意大利少年 or whatever. HAHAHAHA. Love 2E!!

TOTAL RAGE over A lvl 'good results' off-day to be on a Friday lor :( Wed & thurs suck so much and then don't give those days off! It had to be on a CCA day T__T

Leap leap yearrrrr

Hello!

Today is the 29th of February. It happens once every 4 years, so cool right :D Haha, the next time this date would come, it'd be when we're all in year 6... Lol. I have maths test tomorrow (oh the horror it's just like waiting for a nuclear bomb to tick to its destruction and BOOM! I die during the test.) ok maybe not that bad but I have no interest at all in maths! Hais :(

Really need to bring a lot of 补品 to school during the long days like Weds/Thurs... They suck so much cos all humanities are arranged to be the last lesson of the day aka. late afternoons! I'd totally rather these subjs to be taught first thing in the morning... much more awake, yknow? (And they have to give those slots to maths! T__T) So during today's geog I'm like just dozing off and then jerking awake, trying to keep my eyes open but fails, then probably lay down on the table and the cycle repeats itself... so I feel so guilty right now that I MIGHT have missed out a small chunk. Ronald and Jinjie told me that I was like swaying here and there, how I'd jerk myself away from falling asleep LOL. Man, I think I REALLY need to bring some :(

Next point. Since maths is tomorrow... there is nothing more after that! Yayy, CHOIR CAMP MY LOVE, COME SOON.

Actually.. today kinda sucked. I realised how people never notice what I do.... maybe, till the day comes when I stop doing it. I hope I'll never resort to that... but it really depends if I can keep myself from snapping. Kaleidoscope ticket ordering, class party... taught me so many things. I'm especially disappointed with this. You called me last year to order tickets from you to watch a certain genre of music that doesn't concern me in any way, but I still went. I thought it was good exposure and it helps you anyway. But I went there and sat by myself, on a separate circle alone beside strangers, and I tried to enjoy the concert. I thought it was quite nice, really but I really cannot stand is that you chose not to support me... all because your friends did not. I mean if you cannot make it, it's okay, I understand. What I can do is to spread the performances we are doing and how people can come and listen for a eargasm experience, not force all my friends to come all for me, definitely a no. But the case is obviously not like that. I'm sorry that after I saw what you did from behind; I went to cancel tickets I originally, deep from inside me really wanted to support you and go. I felt really unappreciated and I realized, I need to learn how to say no too.

Thank you, Daniel, Jansen, Jovan. Our love for musicals is a shared one. I will definitely put in a lot of effort to ensure that you guys will not regret the performance of world class Wicked & Phantom of the Opera. Of course, the support is mutual isn't it?

Goodbye.

This post is dedicated to a friend, to Bellamy.

Do you still remember two years ago? When I had first known you through Jiayu, Eileen etc. I thought you were rather normal until your saw your Humour and trolling in action. And I thought "omg, that's such a cool guy." later we became closer and together with Jiayu I cannot count how many times I have lost my mind laughing with you two. We came up with the funniest shit I swear! Or rather, YOU had more things to share :)

Our epic moments are indefinite with how I found out we really had many things in common (like how you live so nearby and how your neighbour is..) You didn't tell me directly that you are suffering from a long-term disease, but I did sense something was wrong anyway that you were regularly hospitalized a few months ago. Jiayu told me and I tried my best to pray that you were alright.

Today, feb 14 2012 was the day you lost the battle with cancer. You might have fought a lost battle, but you were brave. It is really unfair for someone like you to have this kind of condition. Yet you managed to make us all feel assured and happy. I quote 3 idiots "today, my respect for this idiot suddenly shot up by a lot. "

I cannot believe that all these are happening. Bell, you were the most positive person ever. You had all the reasons in the world not to and your goal was still to try and make US all laugh. I hope that in our next life, we would become friends again. Because you are some of the greatest friends one can ask for. This is truly a great loss of a bright kid, a motivational peer,


a friend that I will miss.

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I saw you today. And you were just lying down there, darker than usual. Eyes closed. A peaceful sense around you. Your specs are nicely folded at the side and you had a cap on.

You had been stong... stay stong at the other side of the world too.

Jiayu cried hard. I don't know what to think.

Really?

Man I hate changing my ear studs or simply taking them out to wash so much :( I'm forever facing problems with my right ear lobe. I'll put the stud in and realise I can't find the other end, which results in me poking it around inside anyhow (desperate) and then probably end up in pain and bleeding.

So yah you probably can guess that I had to wash them today and the same problem came back to haunt me D: kinda depressed that it's happening AGAIN lol so I just left it to my mum to help me. And she was like poking around to find the thinnest bit of skin to force it through... It was so painful T.T when it was finally through I was just so thankful and was sweating, whining in pain. When I was fitting the other end of the stud on myself, my mum just commented:

"没办法啊，这就是爱美的代价咯。"

Really?
I thought it was a normal part of every girls' life.


Anyway, juniors came to choir YAY! So many of them and thank goodness the trend did continue. When the only girl from 1E introduced herself I was clapping wildly with Carissa :)) I hope they will become a lovely bunch too. Just like all of us. Hehe so we can finally have our reunion dinner! Although CNY is gonna be over tomorrow we waited till now just for the new additions...

Oh did I mention? WE ARE DOING THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA MUSICAL MEDLY THIS YEAR FOR CONCERT!! Double yay :D

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Life sucks. I was just trying to fix things up in a neutral way since its been long. I was so wrong.

Whatever. Totally bye to all those social media platforms. They are so negatively influential.


Btw, I became class treasurer :) hmmm, those green stuff really makes us all happy hahaha. Nah, it's such a big responsibility having everyone's money but I'm willing to do it well!

I will.

For she is smiling alone.

Hello all. HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012, don't screw this year up ;)

This year, it's a whole new beginning. For new goals in life. For new changes. For new things to try out. Right, so school just reopened back to the old days of waking up early in the morning in a state of dysania (I heard that this word means the feeling of not wanting to wake up in the mornings so OHWELL) and trying hard to meet deadlines. But unlike last year, I have decided not to let anything distract me.

I have been thinking, I guess I don't really have any higher things to go for myself because I'm the kind of person who doesn't really know what to set for until I have a taste of how diffucult or easy the thing might be.... >< But I would really like to get into BSP for next year. So perhaps now I'll just aim that i maintain my grades. Then higher I guess.

Yknow, I'm also thinking of getting my own notebook.. a big one. Not the mini I have now because I swear the size is causing it to function kinda slowly cause the system's quite old. Maybe I could trade in and with a bit of my savings, I'll get a good new one. And I'll do that at the end of year so I guess it's a new goal to do well and get what I want as an reward :D

Working hard guise :)

p.s CCA orientation was yesterday, had a nice time singing like 33 songs for 11 classes in 3 hours. Fun laughing and trying to zi-high and all. Just hope many people join or else we are gonna look quite small this year if the "trend" we observe does not continue this year.

p.p.s and I am kinda pissed at this parent. We didn't expect parents to even be here at CCA orientation and they just came in expecting a performamce and all. So as we all scrambled to assemble ourselves for a minute performance Jiran went to apologize for this lack of preparation because we did not expect them. And what came out of that guy's mouth was "Why, not popular cca ah?"