Hi world.
Found some time to update this space, but I got carried away looking at my drafts. So I decided to publish one of it. Sad to say, this post wasn't published because it was not complete then but a whole year later, it remained status quo. Hope this makes up for one year of missing posts!
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03/02/2014
Some updates into 2014 :)
It's week 4 tomorrow, can't believe three weeks of the year flew by rather quickly. Lessons were fast-paced, I think we learnt a lot of stuff already and each subject is completing 10-20% of the year's topics? (assuming that each topic has an equal weighing.) I've also been rather busy with a lot of choir stuff, from CCA orientation to hosting auditions, it allowed me to view choir in a very different point of view and I am immensely grateful for that.
Speaking about CCA, I am also really grateful to have super supportive teachers in charge (basically the chem teachers) who gave us words of encouragements or even dropped by meetings. We have upgraded with a grand total of 2 digital keyboards :'D and musical this year is gonna be
ALADDIN. Yay much? It's gonna be so fun with all the quirky songs, sudden changing moods, which would mean super fun choreo (unlike phantom which has a lot of themes to do with love) and the costumes!! (omg the costumes??) I think we can finally destroy that ugly side of choir where we always standardize our costumes. Like we always wear all white dresses, or everyone wears a black maxi with a chiffon top... This is probably the only choreo performance where we can be so random (in terms of style) in what we dress that we actually look pretty. Like some people wear long skirts, some dresses, some top with bottom and a sash 'round the waist, some can wear headscarves, some wear bangles/huge earrings... ahh! Can't wait! :')
(This also means aladdin songs are prob gonna be stuck with me for the next 5 months so sorry friends if you catch me humming it unknowingly. It is a music thing. Not my fault.)
Choir is honestly one of the best things that have happened in my life and is probably one of the only reasons why I still drag myself to school. To be honest, the past year had been a trying time for me in choir and I think there were experiences that really tested my passion for choir? But this year, people have taught me to put negative thinking aside and how I can make the best of things. I am so grateful for these people - seniors, batchies, juniors - who were there with me when I was really down, and today I daresay I am looking at those events in choir with a more positive outlook. Happy about the improvements and I hope that it will get better from here. Go dhschoir :)
Chingay parade is also coming up and I really can't wait to go for it. Went to NE show with yx just yesterday and though we couldn't stay for the rehearsal we were glad to have crapped so much with Rajes and her (boy)friend Asrhard hahaha and it was really funny cuz this year our contingent got this whole bunch of 11-13 year olds to be motivators and we spent half the time commenting on theose kids. Rajes said that they were probably "just born" and "freshly out of the womb" (which made us laugh), because they hardly look legit to be doing well as an motivator?? And they were dressing way too mature for their own age with things like leggings/snapbacks ("that snapback tho" -yx), also behaving way too rowdily. What if they screw up our cheers
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Musings after reading:
As I read this I reflect on things that were part of my life from a year ago, and I find it funny how I used to be so stressed up over issues that I now know are nothing of great concern. I think it's alright to say this now - actually, there was a period of time when I was upset over how my juniors openly discussed about how they detested attending CCA, and long story short I blamed myself over how my decisions as a leader may have distinguished the fire burning in them. Wow - it's 2015 now and honestly? I think I worried for nothing not only because I had friends who comforted me and tried to dismiss my inadequacies, but because all these juniors needed was something really, really simple that I would not understand then - time. More than a year later, these group of juniors have improved tremendously, some are stepping up, some are improving, and they are all trying, trying, trying their best to find their ways around. My relationships with even the most difficult among them have improved. Yes, they reacted wildly to unpopular decisions made by leaders. Slowly but surely, they understood. Seeing them preparing to take over as seniors really warms my heart and I am so proud of them :')
Above all, why did I worry? I didn't have to worry. Things would become fine. From a realist-optimist point of view: bigger worries will come by, and they will outweigh these matters, and issues become trivial as they age with time. As seen from how senior high syllabus has been so much more intense in these 4 months than I have ever experienced in the past two years. (ha)
I am reminded once again that we should never be deterred by events that are less than desirable. And if you have to feel down, then learn to pick yourself up and never give up. Because one day, one day many seconds later, you will realise how trivial your worries were. And at that moment, it would be a great shame if all you feel is grief and regret.
